Can you go home again? Yes. Will be without easy and carefree? No. Will you survive? Yes.
Last week we made the decision to return to our old church, today we went back for the first time. Overall it went well... lots of hugs... some expected news and a few awkward moments. There will be some adjustments to go through, but overall it was nice to be among friends, to be needed and know you will have prayerful support, something that I think we have been missing.
Besides the awkward moments, there were some funny ones too: A classic double take from some one we know and of course a conversation that went something like this.
Person: Hey guys great to see you!
(hugs, hugs, hugs)
Us: Hi! How are you?
Person: Great, how about you?
Us: Doing well.
Person: Well it is great to see you
(they leave)
DH: (whisper) Who was that?
Me: (whisper) No idea.
Where has the time gone? How can it have been four years? It seems just like yesterday I getting all dressed up and walking down to that smiling face that just makes my heart melt. And now here we are, four years later and still feeling like newlyweds. Yes, it has been full of ups and downs, but I would never trade in one single day. I finally was reconnected with the other half of my soul that day and I don't ever want to go back to being only half again. I guess when you are whole again, time just flies... I think I understand why my mom always said.... it does not matter how long it is... it is never long enough.
To my dearest husband... I love you more and more each day. Thank you for the last four years and I look forward to many more, even though in the end I know it will never be long enough.